mikrafty

It is sad how I tend to take advantage of situations without even thinking it through completely. Is it because I don't care? Is it because I am selfish and am only looking out for myself? I know there are changes to be made; I've been trying for a long time. Deep down inside me there is a compelling feeling to do what is right. However, I tend to shrug it off. I go for the moment, worry about the consequences later. Not that I am just realizing it, but, I see how going for the moment does not make me happy. It does not make me a better person. Rather, it fills me up with unsatisfaction, doubt, a certain fear, and regret. Those people that claim to live for the moment, don't they regret? Do they wish at some time they hadn't made that decision? I don't want regret. I want accomplishment. I want satisfaction. I want hapiness.